Sunday, September 18, 2005
rastaliciousnessifyinglycated
my head is spinning.. my heart is all bruised and sore.. everything has crashed and burned...im in an abyss.. im in misery.... someone out there.. help me...
haiz... why doesnt anyone want me to be happy? everytime i find happiness, its only temporary.... i mean my last entry, i was happy.. i needed that happiness, and i got it from someone..... I felt strong again when that person came into my life.. and thats wat i needed and wanted.... But then my past interfered and my future blew up in my face....... people like joe and is keep ruining all the possibilities of me being happy.. wat do u 2 want from me.. i let u be happy.. why cant u do the same to me?
is, i wanted u to be happy,thats why i walked away... cuz ud be happier with 'her' and ur friends, rather than just me...
joe, i wanted u to be happy, thats why i still remained to be ur friend...but i dun understand u.... why cant u ever be just happy for me? ure always showing such an attitude and thats why i lost someone important..
to everyone out there whos stepping all over me... just stop it..get lost...
my prelims are going down the drain...haiz... im gonna disappoint everyone........haiz........
haiz..ppl ruin my happiness... i ruined it too cuz i was so angry...and upset.. and hurt.. and devastated
im so sorrrry b**..i didnt mean to say wat i said... haiz...
i just wanna die now..
god rest my soul.....
16 June 1988 to 18 September 2005
((thats gonna be written on my tombstone))
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